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My First Love //StoryTime w Amy

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hey guys it’s amy welcome and welcome back to my channel [Music] oh god i’m about to give you guys a story time but before we get to the video i’ll have to say that this video is in partnership with ninja fashion hair i’m going to be installing the hair while i’m telling the story so so this box came fully stocked like when you open it the first thing there’s this like banner type of thing like a background cover or something and then there was a scarf which is this scarf here it’s actually very cute i think i’ll use it i don’t know when and then there are also other things inside like this headband which i don’t think i’ll ever use because it’s just not my style the lashes is crunchy and then just one hair tip [Music] there’s this box of beauty blenders which was very random but i appreciate it hair works to slay your hair properly and then wake up period and then finally the hair which was so freaking beautiful i can’t wake up you guys can’t see it you see the interesting part of the video i pretty hair because like i know that we are close but i won’t just come to you guys looking like this this is not who i am they know who i am at all this story i’m going to be telling you guys i’m see honestly yeah i’m not trying to tell you guys a story i’m trying to reflect this what we’re doing right here is me reflecting i’ve noted about this my second school boyfriend for a very long time so i’m going to be trying to remember i’m telling you guys as for going along so this story time is basically just going to be about my secondary school boyfriend i think that was my first boyfriend to be honest i don’t know he’s the only boyfriend that i can’t remember so we’re just going to call him my first boyfriend even if i don’t think he was my first boyfriend sure because when i was younger i really don’t remember what i was doing in my life anyways i met this boy when we were in um well it is three or ss-1 so we met on to go i don’t know if you guys know that i’m so embarrassed i don’t remember how we started talking but i know that we still talking we might have to go but then we start talking on what’s up and at this point okay no no i remember now we met when we just stream so we’re friends for a really long time and we just used to chat every single day like we used to talk every day we’re doing like bestieship it was it was very funny i i oh god i can’t even this day i’m going to be installing all the details of the hair is going to be on the screen and also in the description box so if you want to get this click the link in the description box to check it out so i just put powder around the lace look how it looks it looks so much better i can’t really see it because i don’t really know much about anything about me to be honest so anyways i’m cutting me with my story [Music] anyways he was trying to link me with his cousin i’m going to call his cousin ryan and but to be honest i wasn’t really feeling he’s causing like that um the reason i was talking to discussion was because everybody was talking to everybody i was talking to different boys i was like i might as well just talk to this cousin so that’s be like assuming i’m talking to somebody did you guess this day and age i don’t think i stuck to anybody every single day but me and this boy used to talk every single day for hours it was kind of i don’t understand the level of joblessness that i was going through that time well i was pretty jobless from talking to boy every single day for a longer time and this boy in ss we have been friends for this whole while in the hs1 he started dating this girl that was in my class so she’ll be meeting me and he’ll be telling me different things about you know like how besties now used to do who can’t be telling me his relationship problems and i’ll just be listening like i was saying anything like oh break up your girlfriend no at this point i didn’t even know if i liked him at that time did you get out i don’t think i liked him at that time i’ll just cause it was to have you just used to talk and it will be telling me about his girlfriend but everybody knew that me and him were kind of close because we always used to talk and then finally they broke up and then he was like that i’m the reason why they broke up i’m the reason why they broke up that girl was like that he didn’t like the type of attention that he was giving to me so she broke up with him and i was feeling better like oh my god i’m so sorry like nobody ever told me that there was any problem with um a boy talking to another girl that is calling his bestie when he had a girlfriend right now i understand like if i have a boyfriend now and he has a bestie i mean the way they are talking now is when his boys talk i’ll be like you better not break up without your best your man you are over so after they broke up we still talking a lot more obviously because he doesn’t have a girlfriend i’m the only one you have at this point we started dating but it was a very lucky thing because um they were already spreading the gist that he broke up with his girlfriend because of me and then imagine everybody now finding out that me and him what did it now confirm that uh he really broke up with his girlfriend because of him and i think my classmates some of my classmates they didn’t really even like me because of the whole problem and me i was a moderation to be honest because i definitely see where all the problem is coming from i would have literally just left this boy alone like i wouldn’t have been doing freshly friendship with him but i was feeling like me and this boy were already besties before he even met you so why do i have to stop being friends with this boy they are complaining but like the boy is he wants to hit like he isn’t telling me anything like we’ve been we’re friends before they even started dating so i was feeling like there’s no problem i was like i started talking to him after you guys said dating so i was feeling like there’s no problem but i see the problem now hurry hurry don’t forget anything like your worries worried that we might all look the same now i can see it’s like i’ve been here before [Music] dry i’d be set only whichever one you want to call it wow i shall wait for it let me cost me my story so i forgot to mention in the beginning of this video that he went to king’s college and i went to queen’s college so when he kissed about an accusation it’s kind of a big deal my relationship wasn’t it was a big deal eh it was a big deal there’s always gossip there’s always talk it was just a lot honestly it was a whole lot but our relationship let me see let me go and find let me find messages let me just read out some messages for you guys let me go and search my email and see what i can find because my memory is not working well [Music] let me read from when i think we’ve broken up here he sent me an email and the email the subject of the email is fun it’s not really matte anymore like before but anyhow i’m icky i know and it was from 1st of july 2017. without knowing too long ago for okay now that i was 16 bro young i wasn’t even young like that okay oh my god i’m not i’m emotional now now it starts with our story what i don’t remember we met a day before his birthday like two days before my birthday that’s when we started talking oh my god this was was actually kind of cute too and was a writer he was very smart anyways the title is our story 13th of april 2015 to date hopefully hopefully no hopefully anything because unfortunately look at where we are i don’t talk to him i i blocked him on instagram and i unblocked him so that both of us won’t follow each other i’ll just write this and hope that one day i’ll be able to show you this we started talking almost two years ago and it’s been quite a relationship we’ve had since then this boy is so full she said you lucky had a crush on me when we first started talking you knew it i knew it but you still hate it amazing really but that wasn’t a major thing to me then we started getting more familiar with each other we still would stay up late at night texting about everything there was mostly about school and stuff i can’t even remember if i had problems i’ll come straight to you and that’s so true anytime any single problem will come to me what no matter what it was we had just said talking but i trusted you to a huge extent the things i told you about my relationship always brought about thee always what about the are you sure you love her question or you don’t love her because to be honest a lot of things that he used to do is that if you love this babe why why are you doing these things that’s how i’m always like you don’t love her or are you sure because i i know that when he was in a relationship i didn’t like him at that time if anything i can remember this is one thing i can remember eventually she broke up with me i told everyone the same thing i’m okay it’s a small thing i’ll be fine i told you the same thing but like your normal annoying self you proved difficult to you proved difficult to convince i was okay i was going to be fine but i needed to vent stuff to someone are you the only one available then this was the period that we became best friends he’s actually a writer oh my god we got closer than ever it was perfect then i had to go and everything up the low key who had a crush on me was not so lucky anymore i couldn’t just be a subject in someone’s life and not be actually contributing to it what are you feeling like make characters today if i slap you you say that i can’t just be excited someone died but that could be oh you can’t get so i thought of doing you a favor at this i thought i was but apparently i wasn’t so i did you a favor i confess feelings to you with the notion that it will be a huge thing for you and it was i guess i guess that’s where everything got messed up and confusing then during late april actually to be my girlfriend you said yes i think oh my god i’m shy i’m shy okay wait i’ll stop there i’ll stop the alcohol oh my god it’s long this video is going to be long i’m sorry because i have to read this whole thing i really started you guys i invested i’m invested just wait let me finish my hair then i’ll finish reading this thing because what the are we talking about what is he talking about what is so long [Music] i know you said it in the heat of the moment but did you say what you mean [Music] [Music] for a second you’ll regret it i almost wanna take it back but it’s too late cause you said it i hope you made it don’t be embarrassed baby [Music] that awkward silence we just don’t know if you might have made a mistake yeah yeah had a suspicion i was secretly hoping that we were on the same page cause your chest you sweat and your palms just won’t rest for a second you’ll regret it almost wanna don’t be embarrassed baby [Music] i think this has to be my new favorite hair to be honest i really like curly hair because then i don’t have to do anything but you see with straight hair and straightening hair i hate it i don’t have to straight ahead and then the wavy hair those mothers the worst cause i don’t even know how to do that but look at me looking like a cutie i definitely can’t do better work on this list well actually i can’t but somebody can’t but yeah i really like this hair to be honest i was wearing it a lot more my other curly hair i gave it to my sister yes mommy gave it to my auntie i had three and i’ve given everything out and i completely regret it because i don’t have any other curly hair so check the description box for all the details of this hair anyways let me finish my story i know that’s what all of you want to hear you don’t really care about me then during late april i actually to be my girlfriend and he said yes i think we talked about every we talked every day about unending topics and discussions things that didn’t even concern us i became a gossip boy does that even exist we talked about my friends your friends who you liked who you didn’t like you supported my rap music as as it was and you know to be honest no but to be honest he like his own part of all these songs they were good but then the rest is kind of like well i have to be the supportive bestie you know i’d support his career then you were always agitated when i would say i was smarter then i’ll go to get into school work hard read pray always make a lot of money up some comments and i was going to get you a black vest the only gift to tell you except for me because you already told me you don’t collect things from people where can i go with you now for the black bears because he hasn’t because he’s in right there right near right okay right but you know collecting from people i’m very i don’t know in fact if i got to come in i feel like i owe you something so i’ll just rather not owe you anything what we had was good it was the best thing and i guess it was perfect but we had to hide the relationship from everybody but in terms of society we live in nothing can be kept a secret somehow it got us and people knew what you feared the most what you feared of the most happened i started talking about i was breaking up it was not working and we could both see it for ourselves it was better if we had stayed friends rather would be better off if we stayed friends it was back to normal our way back to normal both it couldn’t be normally keen it was it was clear that i had fallen in love with you but your ego boundaries would only let you show a little of it you were cons you were concerned about things buttered up your own emotions insecure careful too we had a perfect thing without calling anyone boyfriend or girlfriend i guess it was probably more than that to us i loved you every single day during that time thinking about you constantly i guess you did too you had all these folly dreams about me my dream oh god now i’m really listening i feel so uncomfortable because and i remember you know the feelings i used to feel that’s so bad i can’t believe i like to talk to somebody like this that’s so weird we never ever got to see and when we did we didn’t even know what we were doing again whether we were being just friends or had something more it got awkward then the other thing started i got involved with my ex this is why i broke up in here let’s continue i got involved with my ex we kissed a few times when we had a thing but i’ll confuse you saying it was nothing i guess you had some kind of faith with me and you’ll be okay with but in the future i’ll get to know you whenever okay with it you got messy after some time we always fight about little things and then and turn them into the biggest things and not talk to each other for a day or two and we did try to settle it was built on that i’ll tell you things to cover up everything i’ve done men has come thank you for telling me the fighting got so much what was going on in your head wasn’t being oh what was going on in your head was wasn’t being in love supposed to make you happy or what’s wrong with me or what was wrong with him i hit him we should stop talking the he does he doesn’t love me it was too much i thought my endless i mostly had a headache after each fight couldn’t continue like this it had to stop we start talking stuff originally and then you start breaking up with legitimate talking like i never loved you and i wasn’t like obviously if me and you we are having anything and then you are going behind me but it’s so stupid behind my back you’re going out with your ex and then i don’t know what was really happening but i knew something was happening and my own head is always telling me the truth and i’m telling you that but did you ever love me because if like how can you say it off somebody and then yeah with your ex doesn’t even make any sense you get what i’m saying so obviously i’ll tell you did you remember i would love me because that wasn’t making any sense to me okay so i just opened this thing on my laptop and it is five pages long five pages long show you guys buckle in because i must finish telling you this story we stopped talking i guess we needed to cool off perhaps it worked we got talking again i think it was early january trying to fix everything make it the way it was before but we knew better it wasn’t possible at least we tried the dilemma went away but of course it was something we would always remember a difficult phase that we went through you’re changing them different your ego boundaries are back up yeah stronger than ever because when when i broke up with him i i stopped talking to him completely and then i think like if a long while no that really long long for us like five months six months i think he messaged me again and then we started talking again so that’s what he’s talking about here all within a period of 2015 17 17. two years i’m just very anxious was the writer no i loved that about him i love that he knew how to write and then he was always writing to me i like when the boy is very much in love with me and he’s just like every single thing you’re thinking about is me when you’re singing you’re thinking about me you’re writing you’re writing about me that’s just my type let me now move i’ve i fast forward it because what is bothering me like it’s not it’s not fit i’m not feeling the vibe but what we had in actual sense is the definition of true love the fact that we we we’ve taken out all the passion the feeling and the romance and we still care so much for each other yeah it’s quite painful to meet someone that means a lot to you then find out the person whatever meant to be and you just have to let it go you’re the kind of person people pray for to be in their life the perfect listener the wise advisor with everything that i’ve been through with you it’s safe to say that you don’t know what you’ve got as you lose it and you don’t know what you’re missing until you arrive you taught me that you don’t give up on someone if you know you still want to try it’s possible it’s people like you who deserve read and true love they’ve been telling me these things is see that’s why i was saying they’re telling me i deserve true i’m really loved but now why is the still single why i don’t know you had the courage and faith to build back the trust even after everything that happened i guess that’s hope and that’s what makes you strong and keeps you going it takes a little time to fall in love with someone or have to also have a crush on someone and all that but it takes a lifetime to forget someone you deserve someone that makes you smile and i hope you find that person that makes you smile okay amy your eyes like gem so bright full of trees sorry i suppose romantic here okay maka amy your eyes like gems you’re so bright and full of dreams you’re like a diamond to me the most beautiful thing i’ve ever seen thank you for the time we spent together the nights were always to text me the long late night for the episode thank you for the effort you put into caring for me i’m more than grateful and i appreciate it forgive me for not being you’re nice and shiny i’m your ass you’re right are your close friends i was feeling love with eggshell and uncle sprouse oh i’m a little bit emotional reading this because now i’m now getting the feeling of what i was feeling back then and it’s it’s not a good feeling i don’t know if you feel like that anymore i guess that our love was strong but timing was dreadfully wrong so he couldn’t work we couldn’t belong so he said this to me after we had already broken up and then um i’d already broken up with him and then i blocked him and we didn’t talk for like i think three months or so so he sent this to me so he wants to edit it and then at the end he now wrote i wrote it’s not for us not for you to start visiting the past or start reminiscing on the that put you through but as a reminder of all the episodes we’ve been through and how we’ve rejuvenated fantastically it’s also to remind us in the future that no matter what that no matter what we’ve come too far for anything to break us up to me we are family and where i’m from frankly never let’s get left behind it’s my youtube the end fan this is dumb i know but i’m a hopeless romantic see this is my typo this is he’s actually he’s my if he’s still like this like how he was here then he’d see myself because the boys have been meeting now all of them they’re trying to form unnecessary like hard guy like i’m the hard guy let me be the hard guy you just keep on telling me how much you love me and then i can’t do the hard guy thing but anyways he said this is dumb i know but i’m a hopeless romantic and i know this is very icky and and i’m just writing stuff straight out of my mind and heart i read this the day before i send it and i won’t still change your world i sincerely hope you read this with all your hearts and mind i love your pancakes your very own first second of january 2017 2 23 a.m you guys how cute well for you i’m actually going to send this to him like once i’m off this video i’m going to send it to him so that will revisit the past and think about every single thing that he has done but yeah that’s the story of my first relationship and i’m so happy that he did this because like bro this is so freaking like like the fact that he he wrote it’s like imagine he was in his house and he she’s just typing because he didn’t have a laptop he had typed in his phone and he was there typing about our love story how freaking cute anyways probably this is the reason why i’m single because i feel like this is my this was my first ever serious at that time this was a very serious relationship and yeah i don’t know i really don’t know what to say i’m feeling a lot of emotions right now i’m kind of sad but no reading let me know why you think any comments if you watch it to the end let me know what you think i yeah thank you guys so much for watching this video don’t forget to check out ninja fashion hair it’s going to be linked in the description box and yeah let me know what you think about my love letter i was really taking because i really like it for some weird reason i really like it so yeah and i’m just gonna read our old snapchat messages what am i doing to myself i’ll see you guys in my next video


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